| b'cos you will always have a place, |
[Nov. 25th, 2009|01:33 am] |
what if I said, I love you?
would you be the one I run to?
or would you watch me walk away, without a fight?
when I say I want you, you know I mean it.
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[Nov. 11th, 2009|12:27 am] |
I'm so upset, but I'm too tired to spell out my thoughts. But seriously, I'm sick of all these.
STOP taking me for granted, taking advantage of me.
This world is ugly, i dont like how the closeness of our friendship is determined by you. And I'm quite sure you don't feel sad about it at all, because you're heartless.
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[Oct. 19th, 2009|08:29 pm] |
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I'm done fighting, all yours now. |
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| school days ending, not. |
[Oct. 15th, 2009|07:15 pm] |
School days are passing too slowly. I need time, I need motivation, I need determination, I need the strength, I need sleep. I'm exhausted everyday i go home, I end up falling asleep on the sofa. There's too many things to do.
Aside from that, I'm going for Carrie's Concert tomorrow! :) I'm going to print an extra ticket to frame it up. My High School Musical on Ice concert was framed :)
Check this out, I love this :)
the show was great too!
If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you're the one would you believe me
If I ask you to stay would you show me the way
Tell me what to say So you don't leave me
The world is catching up to you
while your running away to chace your dream
Its time for us to make a move cuz we are asking one another to change
And maybe im not ready but
Chorus
I try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough
If I sing you a song
Would you sing along
Away till im gone
Oh how we're pushing through
If I give you my heart would you just play the part
Or tell me it's the start of something beautiful
Am I catching up to you
while your running away to chase your dreams
Its time for us to face the truth
cuz we're coming to each other to change
And maybe im not ready but
If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you're the one would you believe me
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| Work Hard. Play Hard. |
[Oct. 3rd, 2009|09:57 pm] |
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This week ended off with sports day at wild wild wet and babysitting megan at the zoo! I had a lot of fun, I like it! :)
History Presentation is over, Listening test is over. IVT's presentation is next week, and alot of others things which i can't think of right now.
Wild wild wet was so fun! I loved the viking ride! Though it did felt like I was committing suicide or something, haha. Too bad the queue's really long if not I would have taken it again :) But at the end of the day I was burnt, even though I put sunscreen! :( I looked like lobster! I over moisturise which was a good thing, and i woke up today without pain on my face.
Our class also finished filming the home scene of my script! so yay :D
The zoo was so fun also! I haven't been to the zoo for at least 7years already and it changed so much! I want to go again though we didnt really cover everything due to time constrain and the weather, and of course we had a little baby with us and you know its like when you have to look after also.
Today I realised that I was concentrating on my face so much, I forgot that my shoulders were burnt and they are painful also :(
Now I'm sitting at the sofa, watching tv, with an aloe vera mask on my face, sipping hot green tea - ahh how i wish i could enjoy life like this forever and ever. But sadly I've got to get started on my IVT now.
Hopefully the photographers upload pictures sooon! :)
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[Sep. 20th, 2009|12:05 am] |
I want to forget you
You keep hurting me
I hate the tears coming down on my face
I cant help it
cos you keep hurting me
You think that it was best
but you didnt feel for me
instead you hurt me
I want to forget you
I want to get you out of my system
I want things to turn around
I am not stupid,
dont think im ignorant and i dont know
I hate this
I dont hate you
in fact im still in love with you
but i want to forget you |
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[Sep. 17th, 2009|11:56 pm] |
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My major days this week are over, the 2 assignment due and today the most important the presentation. The presentation went better than I expected and no doubt it was soo stressful, those who werent in my class at that time you probably wont undertstand how gruelling our time there was. A totally different side that we saw today, its scary :(
Happy Birthday Daddy! :D
I haven't done any work today, and i dont really intend to, cos i'm so tired, <3 project runway & antm, and now i need my beauty sleep!
you make me want to hang on to you with every bit i have, but you make me want to leave you, because it hurts so bad. |
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| why? |
[Sep. 14th, 2009|09:11 pm] |
what is wrong with me? am i just facing pre-period moodswing or what. I felt extremely emo last night, and i dont know why. or maybe i do know why, but i refuse to face up to it. It didnt help at all that songs played on my ipod on my ride to school today were all freaking emo! Like hellllooo my beloved ipod, please enlighten me? dont match my mood pleaseeee.
Cramps are damn sucky, I cannot stress that enough. It is so sucky that that is the only reason why i do not want to be a girl. I had hot chocolate with tonnes of baby marshmallows in school - really comforting. And hot milk coffee that I rarely drink, last time was last year, told you it was THAT rare.
I came home to a dinner that I didnt feel like eating, and I'm still in the midst of it, I've been at it for the past hour already. Maybe cramps are good, because I dont have appetite = lose weight = a skinnier me. Awesome?
Alright, get to work now Samantha, your stupid programme notes is growing cobwebs waiting for you to get started, and howwww my lesson plan for thursday. I am absolutely clueless. Freak.
You don't realise that in time to come as you adjourn to the next phase of your life, you're breaking a lot of hearts, at least one I am sure of.
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| its back to reality. |
[Sep. 9th, 2009|11:13 pm] |
I had a well deserved break and I couldnt have asked for more. Its back to reality now, and its scaring me, I honestly do not want school to start. the thought about the workload is already killing me mentally. One step at a time I guess.
Apart from that, I think part of me feels dead over certain things. I dont know why its as though you put me on this roller coaster ride unconsciously, making me the happiest person with the slightest things you do and say, but at the same time making me the dead-est person with unspoken words and actions. I dont like that, but ah.
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| I feel I'm losing you. |
[Sep. 2nd, 2009|09:57 pm] |
I had one of the worst nightmares last night, and i woke up crying, being late for school even. I believe my dreams are the opposite in reality, and I really hope it is the opposite. My cousin thinks I'm just stressed. The start of this week was so bad having 2 tests. Now its over, I feel relieved.
I am still a little shaky, the dream replayed in my mind enough times to make me feel scared.
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| Birthday Celebrations. |
[Aug. 19th, 2009|11:15 pm] |
I had a sweet birthday this year, and really the people I wanted to celebrate with were all there except for a few which made me sad :( But nevertheless, it was sweet :)
Thursday lunch celebration at fish manhattan! two years in a row :)
Oh and my tiramisu cake! :)
Steamboat dinner at home, which we did not take and I had another tiramisu cake again :)  I started my birthday at Holland's Wala Wala with strawberry margarita and calamari! and had a personal wish and hug from ilena! She hugged me the last few seconds before it turned 12 and she lifted me off my feet which sent me screaming and alot of people staring at us, but i dont care :)   Dinnered at relish and food was good :) The couple that I loved taking picture best was bel & charsiew and jaclyn & big ben. No offence to the rest of the couples!  
The rest of pictures are on facebook! I just wished that Rania and Cheryl came! :( ---------------------------------------- --- School's been quite bad, there's too much work to do. I don't know where to start, but its driving me a little nuts. And I'm so fat I need to slim down and save money! i've got so many trips I want to go for! |
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| a place never called home. |
[Aug. 13th, 2009|11:15 pm] |
I honestly did consider going back, for good or not, i wasnt sure, but i did consider. But now I know for sure is that I am probably not going to step into there, unless I have no choice. A place called home? I really doubt it is even home.
I care not for presents, I care not for receiving. But really, i just hope some people would know how to stop taking people for granted, making use of people, being so self-centered and selfish. And they think it is alright for being like that. Or worse, they dont even realised.
Whatever it is, its just damn disappointing. I dont like how this came 2 days before my birthday. Really, just go away.
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[Aug. 10th, 2009|08:30 pm] |
im going to die, i've got a listening test tomorrow, and i just started today only. and nvm that i've got so much to listen to, but i suck at titles and artiste! :(
wish me luck, i need loads of it!
all the best samantha, you need to survive tomorrow, somehow.
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[Aug. 1st, 2009|12:53 am] |
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I have so much work to do, 2 assignments are due monday and I havent started, Ah im exhausted, I need sleeeeep. |
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| first of the final. |
[Jul. 26th, 2009|10:39 pm] |
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You always have the way to make my heart stop,
right there.
And you didnt even do anything to begin with.
My first week of school has been rather packed. Its only going to get worse because this week we didnt have choir practices and nie, which means when everything comes together, i've additional 6 hours of class on top of what I already had gone through this week.
This week was rather hectic, apart of school, I had high tea party at aunty yvonne's place, paid 2 visits to ion orchard which I didnt regret going and still want to return there as many times as I can. Jaclyn's birthday celebration and Revival Now conference put an end to my first week of school.
It was fun I must say, but it is very exhausting. It was so much fun catching up with charsiew and glenn. All our secondary school stories, some really classic ones were just hilarious talking about it all over (:
Revival Now Conference was really intense, but I was truly blessed in many ways, and I've never regretted going for it. Except for lack of sleep, cos I hate struggling to keep awake.
This marks my first week of being a year 3, work load piled in like crazy, I just really dont know where to start. One step at a time I guess! (:
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| exhausted. |
[Jul. 21st, 2009|11:20 pm] |
A lot of things went better than I expected, and I'm really thankful! (: But I'm really exhausted, I crashed on the sofa when I got home just now from Aunty Yvonne's place. I went to Ion Orchard today, and it was amazing! it was shopping paradise there! they have literally every single brand there! I <3 it! (:
Just a moment ago, I was removing pictures off my computer, pictures that kinda irks me even when i have the thought its still stored in my laptop. So I've officially removed it, and I just feel so numb, because it means so little to me.
Long day tomorrow, I will sleep after antm.
Pictures are on facebook already, go tag yourself! (:
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| Its going to be okay. |
[Jul. 19th, 2009|01:33 am] |
I think my mind is rather wild. My imagination goes really wild sometimes and you dont know how bad it is for me. I can think of the most ridiculous things really. But I come to a point where I want to stop thinking because its quite a torture though. I know everything is going to be okay, somehow.
It was a really long day for me today, I am very tired both mentally and physically. But i still have work to do, which totally dampens my mood. Pictures will be up tomorrow on facebook. |
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[Jul. 17th, 2009|12:19 am] |
I kinda like wearing dresses the entire week of my birthday. So I spend the last 2 days looking for dresses, but I couldnt even find one that attracted me. And so much for trying to cut down on my spending because I have been receiving all the birthday vouchers from the various shops that i'm members of. You know how it is like, birthday discounts are always very very attractive and very worth it.
Aside from that, I watched harry potter today! I am so happy because todays the first day they release it! :D Oh and we got really cute popcorn container and drink! Its the same theme as the new movie - the world of wizards. I quite like the movie though we sat through for almost 2.5 hours, its still shorter than australia. Just couldnt really stand the girl next to me that was always coughing in my direction and kept using her sweater to cover her eyes, seriously it wasnt even scary, its harry potter! gosh, so bimbotic.
Okay, I'm looking forward to watching ice age tmr! :D
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[Jul. 15th, 2009|10:43 am] |
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Just when I have already sort out my emotions, and pluck up the courage, some people have to bring me down and crush it all over again. Seriously, what the fcuk. |
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